17 Oct Lacey’s Story: “It’s a Complete Surrender”
Lacey is a student at Meredith who was baptized during Church at the Ballpark. This is her story.
My spiritual walk with God is the most AMAZING thing that has ever happened to me. As a child, I was baptized Catholic and went to Church regularly with my family. During High school, I decided that I didn’t believe in God, Heaven, or the Bible at all. I loved my science classes at school and I thought there was no possible way that a higher being could have created the Earth. I was so skeptical and judgmental towards anyone who believed in God because I thought the idea of God was absurd! I lived my life strictly for myself. I thought I could control every aspect of my life, including the people in it. I was the Queen of my world, and honestly, religion never crossed my mind. I relied on boys and friends for my happiness, and I was always known as a really happy and cheerful person. Nothing bad had ever really happened to me, and I thought I was doing a pretty good job controlling my world.
I came to Meredith with a very serious boyfriend and I thought I had my entire life together. I met some girls from Campus Outreach, but I was totally turned off by their devotion to God. I would love to say that the Christian lifestyle was something that I envied in these girls; however, I honestly thought they were crazy. The idea of living my life for something that I didn’t think existed was completely absurd to me. The girls hung around me a lot, and were really nice, which was really comforting as a freshman. When they brought up God to me, I shut them down and challenged his existence to them daily. I was so determined to prove them wrong and show them that God didn’t exist. During February of 2013, my boyfriend broke up with me and for the first time in my life, I had NO control over what was happening. I was lost, confused, and broken. I reluctantly decided to go on Winter Road Trip with Campus Outreach, and on the last night of the trip, during a heated Bible discussion, I realized that there was a God, and his love for me was greater than anything I could imagine. To this day I am still amazed at how God granted me this sudden faith out of the blue that night, even when I had no desire to believe in him! It was by God’s grace alone!
Months passed and I decided to go on the Summer Orlando Project offered by Campus Outreach. I thought it was okay to only believe in God, because the idea of “giving my life to Christ” scared me. During one of the talks, we discussed identifying sin in our lives. As the speaker read off a list of sins to identify, it shocked me how much sin I really had in my life. I suddenly realized that I NEEDED Jesus in my life to make it through and I surrendered my life to Jesus Christ! All of the sins and idols that I faced were way too much for me to handle and try to fix on my own; I needed to turn all of my sins over to God! That’s the thing about giving your life to Christ. It’s a COMPLETE surrender of your entire life, and scary as it may sound, it was the most relieving feeling I have ever felt. I knew that I could give all of my sins and troubles to Jesus and receive his love in return. I no longer wanted to sin against him, but I craved getting to know the Lord and living my life as one of his followers.
God is now the number one being in my life. I truly have no idea what I would do without his spiritual guidance and love. It still blows me away to think about what I was missing out on my ENTIRE life and the fact that God was pursuing me, even when I pushed him away. Looking back, I was lifeless and soulless, but now with God I feel so full of life! I am SO THANKFUL to be where I am today and so amazed at how God has changed my life. I wake up every morning in shock at how God has transformed my heart this year. For the first time in my life, I feel purely JOYFUL! You think you can know what happiness is, but being filled with the Holy Spirit is a feeling of joy that one can only experience when walking with the Lord. Now I live my day to day life with “Jesus in my Place.” Although being a Christian is also one of the hardest things to live out on a day to day basis, I KNOW that Jesus is worth it. He died on a cross for ME because he loves me, and I wake up every morning knowing that God is on my side. God truly gives me such an immense amount of HOPE for my future and my family. It is so amazing how God works, and I can’t wait to see what he has planned for my future. The love I have for God is so incredible, it gives me goose-bumps even thinking about it! I can’t wait to see how God will move in my life and the lives of others around me!
“Therefore, since we have been justified by faith, we have peace with God and through our Lord Jesus Christ. Through him we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in hope of the glory of God. More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.” Romans 5:1-5